This guest post was written by our friend Javier. I received his update just a few days ago and felt so inspired. I was moved by his process and know so many people are going through emotional challenges at the moment. With his permission I share with your his inspiring words and feel his words of hope as it relates to your own lives.
“Dear friends – sisters and brothers,
I am writing to you to share some good news and personal experiences I have had so far in this year 2012.
For me this year was never (necessarily) about catastrophic or apocalyptic changes, but a date with ourselves, with the very core of who we are as our planet aligns itself with the center of the galaxy we are part of.
My 2012 began in November 2011 as I left the town of Iquitos by boat with a group of 10 friends for a month-long plant “dieta” under the wise guidance of my teacher Don Francisco Montes – on that day I was determined to smoke my last cigarette.
Our time in the jungle was wonderful, so I knew the real challenges would present themselves upon my return to Pisac. And they did – big time.
Between the middle of December and the middle of January I was so easily irritable and quickly annoyed by everything and everybody that I would spend most of the time by myself. At that time I had repeated bouts of paranoia and felt more than borderline suicidal on more than one occasion. It was a classical dark night of the soul and my worst nightmares knocked at my door one by one until my best friend Jeff threatened to end our relationship if I was to keep acting out my neuroses the way I was.
The threat was my wake-up call and that day I decided to devote as much time and effort to dealing with the issues brought up by no longer regularly holding a cigarette in my hand.
I cancelled a trip to Europe as well as my yearly medicine retreat. I told myself that I was the number one person in my life who needed healing and was determined to do anything necessary to make that healing happen.
I am writing today to tell you that that decision to take care of myself and the determination to do it as best as I could have paid off more than handsomely.
This last couple of weeks has culminated in a couple of experiences that for lack of better words I can only call Self-realization – I feel that I have finally accepted what my soul had been longing for during lifetimes: the gift of Divine Love.
This experience, as wonderful as it was, was not complete until yesterday when, following the letting go of some childhood trauma, I realized that the infinite Divine Love I had welcomed in my heart is a gift bestowed upon everyone and everything since the time before time.
I am writing this not to be boastful but to share my deep feelings of hope for all humanity. Just like you I came into this world deeply wounded; growing up gay I was overwhelmed by fears and insecurities; I felt rejected by the Catholic Church that had been my spiritual home since childhood and spent most of my life looking for God.
Like many of you I have knelt and prayed at temples all over the world, and engaged in countless therapeutic and spiritual practices with the hope of healing my separation from the Divine.
Today I feel that search is over – I have found what I had been looking for, and, if I was able to overcome all difficulties, fears and doubts and accomplish what was dearest to my soul, well, so can you. Yes, you can. For I am no better than any of you, therefore I know the gifts and divine blessings that have been bestowed upon me are truly available to everyone – everyone.
We are all here looking for the manifestation of our own personal idea of eternal peace and happiness. As it is often the case in this Babylon, the words and concepts are many but the bottom line is identical for all.
My own path has taken me through some really challenging experiences as I was shedding the lies and limiting beliefs I had created around myself.
Three years ago I almost literally died as I was dealing with some deeply seated anger, and all along the way I have had countless moments of doubt, discouragement and despair. But I persevered and kept on trucking until I reached the end of the road, knowing perfectly well that no one could have walked my path for me and that looking for shortcuts and magic pills was a delusional waste of time – that in order to reconnect my true Self I had to be willing to look at all of me: the good, the bad and the ugly.
Even though I was blessed all along the way by countless beautiful teachers and traveling companions, I realize today that we don’t need a single more blessing in our lives: upon awakening I could see how truly blessed we already are, have always been and will always be.
I sincerely believe that we have all signed up to be here in this year 2012. as challenging and crazy as it may feel, this is truly an amazing time and opportunity to meet, embrace, honor and celebrate the Divine
Spark that is within us all.
Our willingness to face whatever challenges we may encounter along the way is a small investment with infinite returns, I guarantee you.
The promise of Heaven is the real deal and valid until fulfilled by all.
I love you,
Javier Regueiro & The Ayaruna Center
Javier Regueiro is a Spanish national born and raised in Switzerland. He is a certified Massage Therapist, Rebirther and Avatar Master, and a student of “A Course In Miracles”.
He moved to Peru in 2004 to study Amazonian plant medicine and shamanism, and has apprenticed with various teachers in the Iquitos and Pucallpa areas. He has undergone several months of shamanic diets, learning the use and healing properties of plant teachers such as ayahuasca, tobacco and datura among others, and has become a full-time ayahuasquero since.
The Ayaruna Center is located in Pisac, in the Sacred Valley of the Incas, between Cusco and Machu Picchu; the image above is a photo of the Ayaruna Center taken from the Pisac ruins.
I have built a house and ceremony temple for Ayahuasca and an open one for San Pedro here in order to pursue my healing work with these plants, and to create a space where people can most benefit from working with these powerful medicines: a safe space for the exploration of one’s inner realms as well as other dimensions.